Sweet Kaleb

I just have to say that I had a sweet moment with my baby boy. I was putting him to bed and that has to be one of my most favorite times with him. He will lay his head on my chest and then pick it up, smile at me and lay it back down. This probably happens a couple of times while we're saying prayers and it's just so sweet. Sometimes he'll just start laughing for no reason and it's the cutest giggle I have ever heard. I laid him in his bed last night and it hit me how incredibly much I love him. I don't think like this too often (which is sad to say) but I realized tonight that no matter how much I love him, God loves him and me so much more. I started thinking about God sending his ONLY son to be crucified on the cross for me and for Kaleb and for everyone else. I'm sorry, but if someone told me to crucify my only son I honestly couldn't. I can't even fathom the love of Christ for crummy ole me but it hit me tonight like a ton of bricks that he really does love and value me, my son, my husband and everyone else on this earth. People use to tell me that having a kid changes everything about you...even the way you think and oh my how that is true. Kaleb is our miracle and it was only by the grace of God that he was born as far along as he was and that he lived and is perfect. It has totally brought me to more of an understanding of what faith really is and even though I struggle with it sometimes I know it's real.

On another note, Kaleb is doing great. He's still on his belly doing the army crawl but we're holding out hope that soon he will be able to make it on to his hands and knees. We are still in physical therapy every Wed. and she said he's catching on great and he'll get up on his hands and knees soon. The latest accomplishment has been him reaching out for something, getting on his knees while holding on to a toy or table or something higher and moving his knees until he's close enough to the object to stand (if that makes any sense.) This is a big deal for him. He will get up on his hands long enough to reach for something but not to crawl. He's doing great! We have his eye appt. tomorrow so we'll see what they say about his tracking...hopefully it's an easy fix so I'll keep you posted.